My mom was diagnosed to have cancer, it came as a real shock as she took good care of her health, very careful with food, no alcoho, nothing abnormal. No heavy dinner, very little meat.

 

The diagnosis was thorough and there is only one option is to have the offended area surgically remove.

 

The surgory was successful and the relief to the family members and myself, 

 

However, there is another area that the cancer cells had spreaded and can not be surgically removed as it would be life threatening.

 

There is no other choice but to go for Chemo therapy, which is non invasive but it is taxing on the patient. There is other side effect too. And the cost of the treatment come as a shock. It is in the thousand per treatment, and she needed a course of few treatment.

 

The next thing is to look for financial resource to cover the treatment and the drugs that are required, and there are a lot of follow up treatment, and of course medical fees needed.

 

Do I need help, you bet.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Times are BAD

There is nothing to be sad

Cherish what you have - kids, family and friends

There are always new beginnings, never an end

 

Times are BAD

Get even, do not get mad

You just have to embrace the change

With nothing to lose, and everything to gain

 

Times are BAD

The past you had, the future a fad

Treasure today, it's a gift, a dividend

That's why it is called the present

 

Times are BAD

Still there are sure things to be had

After the Rat, surely comes the Ox

Why worry how you will fare, run with the box

 

Times are BAD

Enough with the Rat

This Chinese New Year of the Niu

Rejoice, out with the old, welcome the new.

 

Copy from somewhere:

提前祝福:

亲愛的朋友:

佳節將至為送上我的餅

第1餅:圓月餅,代表一顆圓圓的,寄託了一份圓圓的,希望能圓一個圓圓的。

第2餅:千層餅,第一層第二層第三層中間夾層甜蜜!你喜歡!

第3餅:工餅,用浪漫皮;溫馨餡;幸福蛋黃;懂得味的人不需要多

第4餅:法餅,成份:真心快樂;保質期:一生;營養:溫馨幸福真情;製造:想念你的人。

第5餅:團圓餅,平安的餡,

~~明月,一閃一閃,掛天邊;

~~~思念,一絲一絲,連成線;

~~回憶,一幕一幕,在眼前;

~~~但願,一年一年,人圓全。

啊~~ ,WHO 偷吃了的餅？

好了,圓了,家圓了,肚子圓了最好錢包也圓了^^"

佳節快樂闔家團圓美滿!!!

 

你好吗? 好久没有联系了, 你的电话 换了.电邮也可能换了.

见不到你的人, 听不到你的声音,闻不到你得香水味, 感觉不到你的心跳,你的气息.

有点安慰, 有点失落, 有点难过.

安慰, 因为你已经毕业了,找到工.

失落, 因为要通过别人才知道你的消息,

难过,因为失去了知己.

如果还是这样, 当以后在街上遇到会不会尴尬 ?

你可能拉了男朋友的手, 遇到一个知道你的以前的另一个男人,你会假装不认识, 没看到吗?

It was tuesday morning, it was raining, the expressway is jammed with heavy traffic, the electronic board highlighted there was a traffic accident in front.

 

The speed slow to crawling speed, estimated 5 km/hr when there is a chance to move forward.

 

As my car inched forward, stopping , I felt there is a slight bump , I went down to look, the car behind bump into my car, probably at speed of 5 km/hr.

 

I quickly checked and found no dent on the car bumper,only slight scratches, the door can open, the support beam is ok, the back light is ok.

 

I let him go since it was rainning heavily and the jam was really heavy.

 

I don't care much about my car outlook anymore, since the day my car was scratched by this uncle trying to help a friend moved house, with my then new car.

 

The scratch is there, it is on the surface, superficial, it is only skin deep, it is trivial compared with the hurt inside.

 

It is gone, but the heart is there, but you won't know, or you refuse to know.

 

All these years, when things turn bad, you only hide, change email addresse, moving house, change Handphone no, you are running away from problem instead of face up to it, you can run, you are running from people who help you, you ignore them as if they are complete stranger, since all these people have no more value to you,  you can hide, you pretend you did not see your friend, with the internet age, boundary seems nearer, one day it is going to catch up with you and come and bite you where it hurt most.

 

It is a good day at work, scored some points, in presentation of certain report, certain finding.

 

This was with a lot of hard work and great effort by the team.

 

Although, as usual, this colleague is there is question the data, facts and figures, trying to find fault but I was well prepared, all angle cover.

 

So, I was not make to look bad, my day was not spoil and my mood is good.

 

It seems fortune is changing, I become sharper, better in my skill. My team gel seemlessly and perform like all cylinder on fire. As you can see,

I do not have time to write because I am working on priority.

 

I also uncover, this SHW taking advantage of this ED ( not erectile dyfunction ), but eating into my quota of .....,

some how she think she can swallow me, taking advantage of my kindness, well, I dont think I will let her swallow me, I rather shoot it on the wall, haha, just kidding.

 

As usual, office politic, she has to pick on me, we"ll see, she has 5 people quitting, from what I know, some do not like to work for her because

she did not take care of the peple, drive them up the wall so that she look goods, take care of the peopl, do not take people for granted, they will fight back

in the way that you least know. And those who quit, did not have anything good to say about her. Too bad, can't even be friend.

 

 

Well, it is just another day at work.

 

 

This is just a re-collection of event.

 

It was supposed to be my special day, I took half a day leave as usual, since I should have the previleage once a year on this day.

 

But, I used to have something and someone to look forward to, some one who will whisper sweet nothing, buy me a small present, a small Bday card,

 

But this year nothing of such is expected, not to mention some kind words to make my day.

 

My mind was wondering away, not focus on the road and mind you, before I know it, I crash onto the Kerb and luckily, noone was on it,otherwise, I would be in deep trouble.

 

The wheel was still intact but the alignment is out, go to drive slow to get to the work shop, I was lucky, again, the tire last till the workshop before I notice the puncture.

 

The tires were changed and the wheel alignment is adjusted back, although the castor is still out by a bit, but the car is still in a drivable condition, there is still something that can be done to bring the castor back to spec, but I am waiting to get back to the dealer to have a check to make that decision.

 

 

When it come to 224, it was on a Sunday, I have actually bought a Bday card and a small present, I was afraid and do not know how to begin, how to start, as it might be something MCY no wanting to see, I was afraid it might spoil her day, that I didnt send it out, when will that day that I can send out Bday card, greeting for Xmax and new year.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This is an update to the paintball game.

 

Last Saturday was very tired as I am still running a flu, and was down with fever on friday evening.

 

But somehow, with medication, 1 night rest, I somewhat recover from the running nose, fever had subsided, but I do not feel like the normal self.

 

What the hack, I have to do it as I was norminated by the VP, go and win is the message, that easy, I thought.

 

Lucky enough, we are the first team to play, it seems like everyone have heard about my team. The opponent has not play before, but they have been briefed on the game objectives and rule and regulation.

 

We started with the first game, as usual per our strategy, we shoot down the targets and won the game with the fastest timing of 29 sec.

 

Like what other teams were saying, haven't even warm up , already game over.

 

We also won the second game, this time with a bit of an resistance, but another team also have full marks within the group, the rule allow 1 team per group with the highest score to proceed to semi final.

 

So it was decided to go for shoot out, although, my team members prefer to play another game to decide the winner as we have an advantage.

 

But I decided to go for shoot out as another chalenge.

 

We won on the shoot out and My team are thru to the semi final, but too bad we have to wait as it started to rain, the rain become heavier and the semi final have to postpose to another date, ha, it is just my day as I am feeling exhausted due to the flu.

 

i hope to recover in time, then we definitely have a good chance.

 

We have a new strategy, hopefully, will take us thru to final and win.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

During the Holiday season, I visited a cousin's husband who has just had his colon remove due to cancer.

 

He was visibly weak and pale as he could hardly open his eye, although, he is concious, he acknowledge with a simple finger movement.

 

He was posted to his company's China operation in Kunmin,leaving behind his family in Singapore.

 

When he came back for Christmas to be with his family, they already book a ticket to visit Bangkok for vacation. But his stomach pain was so acute that he consulted doctor and some blood test was done, the report was not in his favour and they have to cancel the holiday and rush to a hospital immediately.

 

The Hospital did a thorough check including "colonscopy" - is this the right word.

 

And found that he has 3rd stage colon cancer.

 

He is only 41 year Young, with 2 young children,usually, one will think that 3rd stage colon cancer will be associated with older people.

 

The operation was carried out to remove the cancer with a large part of the colon, but the cancer has spread to his intestine, the doctor advise that he should have chemotharapy treatment for the intestine cancer, I did not catch the severity of the intestine cancer.

 

 

Well, I hope for the best for him, as he is still young and have 2 young children needed his care and support. Life is precious, without good health, it is going to be pretty tough for his family.

 

All this could have been possibly avoided as he constantly complain of stomach ache but just take it lightly and did not go for further detail examination since the normal treatment did not stop the symptom.

 

I am sorry I do not know enough about how stomach ache can lead to colon cancer.

 

But the story is that life is so unpredictable and you never know what will happen next, treasure the people around you, care for them, and taking care of yourselves is another way to care for them.

 

 

So:

Life is short, work hard,Play hard,

forgive quickly, so that each will learn to appreciate the beauty of life, the warm of friendship, have the courage to say sorry, also the strength to forgive.

Kiss slowly, oops, don't know how to describe, as I have only enjoy kissing 1 person in my life, but it is a wonderful feeling, never forget.

love truly,love those surround you, love your family, love your friend, most importantly love your enemy, for you love your enemy, one day your enemy will be your friend and you will not have enemy, life would be wonderful.

Laugh uncontrollably, laughing is the best medicine, laughing can have a positive effect on everything you do, anyway, when you laugh, the whole world laugh with you, when you cry, you cry alone, so why not just laugh.

and never regret anything that made you smile. I do have a few regret, but I will look on the bright side, do the positive, think of the positive, the regret will dissapear, foes and adversary will become friend again, I will improve myself, to improve others.

最近在追看魔女宥煕，剧情普通，但是喜欢他的歌和对白。

 

对白如Johny对胜美说，“如果不能当情人，继续当朋友也不错，不要因为心痛而不见面，失去最珍贵的时候会更心痛”。还在脑里徊蘯。

 

人生就是如此，多一个朋友总是好的，特别是一个有情有意的人，已经成恳的为他在冲动时所说的话道歉。

 

人非聖贤，也会有犯错的时候，你是否有一个高贵的情操， 能够接受道歉， 继续当朋友 ？

 

原谅是一种美,

要原谅一个无心伤害的人,就不要做一个有心接受伤害得人.

关怀是一种智慧的表现,

有智慧的人心胸宽大, 不钻牛角尖,

只有学会放手,

那就不用逃避， 以平常心对人,有缘没缘,一却随缘.

才会得到更多。。。

 

 

Last Saturday,We were at Permas Go-Kart Club in JB for the Company Go-Kart event.

  

There were 80 of us in 16 teams, each team consists of 4 men and 1 lady driver.

 

The Go Kart that we have had a 80cc single stroke engine, which can travel up to a top speed of 60 km/hr (my estimate ).

 

I am a last minute insert into Team Puma as one of the original team member can not make it, I am more than happy to be in the team, as I was late, by the time I form a Team, the registration had closed.

 

We race against another team, the result is decided based on cumulative time of all team member of two round, each round we were given 3 round of practice then follow by the actual where the timing is taken.

 

It was quite a thrill to be in a Go-Kart, I am lucky to get a Kart with good engine.

 

On the first lap I learn to negotiate with care on a big bend and I spin on the hair pin as I brake too hard and landed outside the track on the glass, I am stuck, but I slowly kick myself out of the glass with one leg on the accelerator and another leg stretching outside the kart to give the Kart some push. On subsequent lap, after getting use to the Kart and the circuit, I become more daring and started to drive faster. Daring to cut the corner with minimum braking and learn to take the line, the body can feel the pull of G-force when go round the bend, what a thrill.

 

When the race finally start, I was behind 3 cars, and I was chasing them with full vengeance. As each lap went by, I overtook one by one, And finally when the race end, I came in first in my round, although the timing is not bad, slightly above 1 minutes on average, but soon other drivers timing improve and beat my timing by a good 5 sec, it is a lot in racing, however, after learning that those who drive faster than me had tried and practice before, I felt that I am actually doing ok.

 

Anyway, I was there to enjoy myself, I tried my best, and have lots of fun, period!

 

Then, there is a second race, the timing for most teams and most drivers improve.

 

The picture below is when we started from the pits.

 

My timing is not bad among the rest and was good enough to make it into the final 14.

 

During, the final I was given Kart 22 which was supposed to be a good Kart. And the race start with 2 round of practice session, the Engine stalled during the race and come to a halt as I was trying to chase up one of the fast driver ( who was later crowned  champion ). I think I must have lost about 10 second waiting for help. The “Marshall” used his Kart to push start my Kart, there goes another 5 second. When the engine finally able to come back to normal. I was pushing the Kart really hard trying to make up for lost ground, on the final lap the engine stall again and cannot be restarted, so I was push back to the pit and I ended up coming last, one consolation is that my clock my best time during the final race.

 

It was really fun and exciting, I now know how to negotiate a fast bend without  spinning and know how to handle the hair pin and still maintain some engine power so that I can pick up speed faster.

 

I would definitely do it again. Hopefully, It will be fortunate to get a fast car and improve on my timing.

 

Let's go.

 

life in a fast lane can be tough, while searching for solution to a problem, there are challenges ahead, obstacle to cross.

 

at the end of time, it is how we overcome the obstacle and meet the challenge, the feeling of solving or resolving an issues is very satisfactory. Of course, if not able to resolve will add pressure and whatever that come along.

 

However, It is a lonely road ahead, changes is expected since I am now reporting to a new organsation.

God's know what is lying ahead.  Here we go again, trying to understand the new boss, new organisation mission, understand the expectation...... etc.

 

 

 

人生在世有多少个知己，

 

多少友谊能够长存，经得起时间的考验。

 

有人跟我说， 朋友是要来付相利用，如果没有利用价值的时候，这个朋友的关系就开始 变质了。

 

说的也是， 这是一个很现实的社会，每个人都有心机，每个人都有自己的目的。

 

有的为了自己的目的会栟命打平，有的会多投机起巧。

 

这也无可厚非的，每个人都在玩游戏，只要每个人跟着游戏规则就不会乱。

 

就是有人，不跟着游戏规则，或者，随意更改游戏规则。

 

现在乱了，怎麽收拾这个局，这麽多年的如力都白费了。

 

碎了，伤了。

人有起落,月有圆缺，

感到失落难过,想找人倾诉而无门，

个中滋味谁能知，难道朋友只能共荣华，而不能共患难，

难道每个人只愿听好话，而不能知心，

知己已不知，知音何处寻?

 

Participated in Paintball competition, there were 6 teams altogether, each team consist of 5 persons.

 

our team consist of 5 persons from different department, unlike other team, we all play painball for the first time.

 

We went in with the aim of enjoying ourselves, our strategy is for me to be the front man to grab the box and return it to home base, while other teams member shoot the opposing team target and shoot the opposing team runner.

 

It was pretty fun and we play with 2 other teams from our group, and we win both and has score full point of 6, and play against the runner up of the other group when we go into the elimination round.

 

It was easier and easier as we continue, we deploy the same strategy each time and become more and more familiar with each other roles and supported each other well, we beat every team and reaches the final. And our timing of achiving our objective improve each time. As a runner and shooter, I do not know where I got the strength and energy to run faster and fasteer each time and know when to go and when to avoid the oncoming bullet.

 

There is no difference in the final, we beat the opposing team with the same execution. fast and dead accurate in our shooting, fast in going for the target and fast in retrieving.

 

We are called the silent killer, as no one fancy our team. We have 1 big fellor who is a big target, can't run, so he is used as a shooter. We have a middle age man, wearing a office shoe, not prepare for the game, but he gamely take up the role of shooter and did his job well.

Another guy. who is fat but still able ro tun, hte other guy and me , I have been quite fit and sporty, but seldom shown to people as an athelic. now we win.

 

Now they know, the should not take me and my team for granted. It is always good to win against the odd.

 

It is a damn good feeling to beat other team. I learn from this is that with good team work and encouragement, helping each other, we try our best, we can overcome the odd and win.

 

Althought, there is a prize to pay, there are bruises all over the arm and chest, and I feel the tightness of the chest, I was concern after the game about the tightness, should I over stretch, whose know what will happen. But anyway,when I set about doing something, I try my best, I will do it without worry about my own safety , as I was worry I will let my tem down.

 

I would thought My blood poressure would be better, but it is still at high. No wonder, the tightness.

 

Well,work hard, play hard. I keep my part of promise and deliver, I expect the same from other to deliver. If people take me for granted, they will pay the prize.

 

Knowledge and information is power, when it is used at the most appropriate time, it can be very potent and effective. So. don't take people for granted, you will pay the prize, heavily. 

 

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Have been feeling the stress, the stress from work, emotion, etc.

 

Seen Chinese TMC yesterday as usual, the Doc was very concern after measuring my blood pressure, she told me my blood pressure is at dangerous level, she advise me not to get angry, not to go into argument, sleep more, as she say that the Blood pressure trend for the pass few weeks has been at the highside despite medication given.

 

11/8 - 120/70 healthy region.

18/8 - 140 /96 a bit unhealthy, but I know due to work stress, due to some colleague.

1/9 - 170/ 110 unhealthy, could have detrimental effect, I know the reason, due to emotional stress.

8/9 - 160/100- still high, the medication did not help,as I can't get good sleep, lying on the bed counting sheep does not help, even counting swallow did not help.

15/9 -150/90 with stronger medication, the blood pressure come down a bit, but still a concern.

22/9 -165/105 , the TMC doc raise an alarm that I need to take care of myself, she ask me not to get angry, as If I get angry and get into argument , I could have stroke or possibly collapse, and she will not say whether I have reach a borderline case or there is an immediate danger, anyway, god's know. I know the reason why it is still up, I have been accused of something I did not do and the kind of language hurt.

 

On second thought, I recnetly has developed headache that I do not have, is this a sign of things to come.

 

To my friends, should I collapse or die, just wish that whatever the bad blood or misunderstanding that has happen be forgiven, let bygone be bygone. Think of the good things. look on the brightside.

 

I am prepared to let go but I am asking for more time, but somehow, people do not always see it the same way, no matter how long you know them or how "deep" is the relationship. Especially when you really need someone for a favour, you can really see the true colour.

 

Soul mate are really hard to find, and how true are the soul.

 

To my Badminton kakis, should I collapse during the game or tournament, use my handphone look for Wendy,my sister. But this is only precaution.

 

Come to think of it, I better prepare my will.

 

Life is so unpredictable,

  

好难过